staceycole

I remember: Your shoulder beneath my head It makes me feel extraordinary Your heartbeat flooding through my ears Fill me with the sound of adoration Our fingers intertwined and your lips, so gentle Brush against my hair. All of this: Just a memory-being relived Day after day, after dreary day My body yearns to feel again. Last night: I imagined that I did Last night: you were there with me-or I could have sworn you were Last night: I could feel you there-holding me Last night: My head felt as though it was rising and falling in time with YOUR breath Last night: You were there-In my bed, by my side-as it is meant to be Last night: Do NOT tel

Skin is showing that normally wouldn’t Feeling exposed, she walks down the halls Thunder thighs Thunder thighs Thunder thighs The statement runs through her mind Every jiggle, one more note is made Jiggle Jiggle Jiggle That’s all she can notice She just knows that they are staring Fat Fat Fat That’s what they think of her That’s what she believes they think of her Never again Never again Never again She will keep herself hidden away Her sexy body will never be seen again Sexy Sexy Sexy Why can she not believe it? So sexy, yet so afraid Fear Fear Fear Scared of being ridiculed Needlessly

Try to pull a smile from my lips?  Inconceivable! Try to get me to feel your false joy. Go ahead and try.  Not gonna happen. This burden I bear will not be understood. I CANNOT be understood. Unless you happen to know  About the desperate cold. The constant chill that surrounds me.    At all times   I am catatonic. My heart is encompassed in frost. And soon It will die.

One Way is the path of this road No other way can you dare to go Why would they do this to the people? Make it so they can go Only the one way I try to take my own path but am stuck Stuck on the one way they set before me The whispering wind passes by Not following the one way It flows as it pleases In whatever direction it fancies. As I stand on the road Marked one way I begin to change My heart and body lighten To flow with the wind I do not care about your one way I will go as I please I shall follow the wind In many ways

Do you know that I truly do mean it? When I tell you that you are absolutely beautiful? When I say that you should be mine? You should be my love. Do you know that I mean it? When I say that I love you? When I tell you how proud of you I am? Can you tell that I want you? Can you see how much I desire your love? I do… every hug, every touch.      Every sweet caress. OH! How I want you my love! You are the definition of perfection to me my love. Your dazzling smile fills the void within me- My heart swells at the sight of you, I am completely smitten. I want you to know so badly…. But then things would be weird… Cu

  Three shots ring out;  they speak of honor  courage  and bravery. The flag is folded up- it shines Red White and Blue.      A man is laid to rest;      he is a father and a son      he is a brother and a man the sobs of his family ring within my ears; they resonate in my aching heart.  His casket is lowered-       it is lowered into the frigid earth.  We stand around the grave;   cold   shivering  crying. No matter the age, or the circumstance-  loss is loss.  A man was loved, now he is gone-        as everybody someday will be, and as I think about this I wonder….  is it worth it?  Is living life worth my death?

How can I manage to stop? How can I save myself? It’s so hard to take control When I am in a trance Blood trickles down my thigh. When I manage to wake- I will hate myself for what I’ve done But that eventually leads to it happening… Again. I wear a dress for two reasons: 1. To ease the pain. 2. To fool the world.

It had been over a month Over a month clean The pain now returns-bloody Every night more appear Scars- Hidden away from sight Unseen by all-wincing in pain The only indication; That could be anything- For any reason Every single night-1:30 When it starts-never When it ends Forever relapsing